Impact

Impact

What is the first thing that comes to mind with this word?

Hmm…First thought I had, as I closed my eyes, was a big boulder rolling toward me on a very narrow path from which I could not escape. I had the sense I was being asked to confront something, something big and heavy and old. I held a quick gasp of air and my heart ached and pounded. This was something I’d stuffed away for years. Oh, the weight of it! Layer upon layer of accumulated procrastination cemented by fear and uncertainty. That boulder finally got so close there was no way to out run it.

“What do I do?”

A still small voice said, “Trust it.”

SO, I let it hit me. It knocks me down and rolls right over me, but it doesn’t hurt. In the next moment I felt something just washed over me…warm and tingly.

I take a full, deep, slow breath…then another. Peace, clarity and insight fills my awareness. .....I can will to move forward.....I can be brave and take the next step.....It requires a choice, an action.

After much pacing around, I began to ask the hard questions and to accept the answer. Forgive, forgive and forgive some more and keep moving, keep asking, keep seeking and keep knocking and yes, the doors will open.

Impact…is a question. It is an opportunity. It is a blessing. If it changes me, it can change you because we are connected. It is always about the way Love connects, heals and explodes the scary boulders into smooth dirt under our feet for the next leg of our journeys.

Amen